Wednesday, October 01, 2008

No and No

To answer all of your thoughtful emails—which I was too rude and lazy to respond to—no, I am not cured, and no, I am not dead, although I feel like I might die right now, and it’s not because of the tumor in my neck or the mass that’s smashing my brain against my skull, and it’s not because of my unwanted pregnancy or the rapidly progressing mouth cancer that I’ve developed from excessive margarita intake—and no, it’s not because of this uncontrollably long run-on sentence—it’s because last night, I learned—wait for it—that my little brother has leukemia.

Leu-fucking-kemia. Do I need to say anymore? Do I need to say that this is a huge—and just because I resisted the urge to hit caps lock when I typed “huge” does not mean it’s not an enormously huge “huge”—blow to my mental health?

I will say one thing, if there was ever any chance of me beating hypochondria, it’s not gonna happen now.

12 comments:

jymi1313 said...

i am so sorry leila.:( hang in there

~Jobthingy~ said...

oh darlin. i am so sorry to hear that.

i am keeping him in my thoughts.

do keep us updated ok? on both you and him

*hugs*

CathyWe said...

I am soo sorry to hear that. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

HeatherG said...

Hummm, that is not good you're right. I'm not sure what to say. One day at a time and take care, all of you.

Leila V. said...

Thank you all for the kind words. I will definitely keep you updated.

Anonymous said...

best wishes

Anonymous said...

Leila,

Please know that I will pray for you and your brother. Stay strong.

Janey said...

I'm sorry to hear about your little brother. It's tough enough to deal with hypochondria but an illness of a dear family member as well doesn't help any. I myself am a hypochondriac. I didn't think I could beat it either.

I heard the cognitive behavioral therapy is the best therapy out there because you don't just sit there and talk about your problems you actual face them.
There was no way I could afford this therapy.

So I searched other alternatives and came across the blob (like I did yours). Here is the link: http://ocdtherapy-therapycasting.blogspot.com/

It's about a new documentary show focusing on OCD and other related disorders. They were needing participants in the So Cal. So I called (a little skeptic at first) and went for an interview. What the hell, what can I lose. And if i get chosen, I get FREE therapy.

I think they are still looking for more people in the So Cal area. Check em out.

Janey said...

I'm sorry to hear about your little brother. It's tough enough to deal with hypochondria but an illness of a dear family member as well doesn't help any. I myself am a hypochondriac. I didn't think I could beat it either.

I heard the cognitive behavioral therapy is the best therapy out there because you don't just sit there and talk about your problems you actual face them.
There was no way I could afford this therapy.

So I searched other alternatives and came across the blob (like I did yours). Here is the link: http://ocdtherapy-therapycasting.blogspot.com/

It's about a new documentary show focusing on OCD and other related disorders. They were needing participants in the So Cal. So I called (a little skeptic at first) and went for an interview. What the hell, what can I lose. And if i get chosen, I get FREE therapy.

I think they are still looking for more people in the So Cal area. Check em out.

Lula said...

IM SO SORRY.

My uncle has leukemia too, we learnt this year :(


I'm going to my first physical in many many years now that I'm finally covered by an HMO. I know it sucks, but at least Im covered in this country. With all your respect americans, but the health system in this country is the worst thing I've ever seen. I really really hope your little brother gets the treatment he deserves.

It's all in my head.... hopefully. said...

Just so sorry to hear that :(

ShamWOW! said...

I hate blogger. I'd written a nice, warm response and it disappeared. Maybe it's just better to say "I'm sorry" and leave it there. Good luck to you both.